the context

couldn't find them at the time; the urgency, yes, the desire but not the thing desired. the times were straight inside the box, in the paper bag overhead, not thinking out of it, not "that way" anyway. didn't need the 70s then; now do, but only find them on the internet. patti's grey, debbie's had work done, and lizzie's fused to the dna of sea urchins, offline. i met her, i'm sure, in the 80s, when she was working with tillett, writing a screenplay on his toshiba in my apartment on the lower east side, but not in the 70s on the verge of, in the 80s belated blow up your nose nostalgia without desire for the thing desired a decade ago then, two and some now.